Wants

Another dream realized. I wanted one since years ago and I finally bought one this year. I went to Louis Vuitton KLCC store to check the price, and Zura helped me to buy it in Switzerland while she's on holiday. Got it RM1k cheaper than Malaysia, huh Malaysia sales tax kao kao! I remember last year I bought a Longchamp handbag in Paris with ~RM800 price difference - Isetan KLCC was selling it at RM1890. I definitely vote for shopping branded stuff outside Malaysia.

I'm not really a brands-slave, but I do have my wants...at least once a year. Hmm next year..? New wallet! ( huhu maybe after my now-wallet really teruk lah, my husband is starting having a headache -__-" ) I want theeeeeesssseee

Perlu Ke?

Mmg tak perlu la kottttt. You didn't have to include me in your New Year's resolution puhh-lisss. Move on, bastard! You yourself made me pull the trigger d'uhh, I watched you die, remember? Sendiri buat palat. Aritu konon buat2 wish birthday salah secara pathetic, ni lagi nak carik pasal lagi dan lagi?! Feel free to be happy with si bimbo gemok pilihan otak-letak-kat-kote tu. Ke dah boring sbb tu carik drama baru. I don't need you even as Facebook friend, perlu sgt ke? Pfftttt. Good night, have a nightmare! I'll always be the one that got away for the rest of your life. FUCK YOU.

HAPPY NEW YEAR to all! Don't worry, I'm nice to good people. Have a wonderful 2012! Looking forward for heavy-duty changes in life :D

Stay

A plain fact of human relationships is this:
People come and people go

Not necessarily from death.
Sometimes simple circumstance
can take a person right out of your hands,
never to be seen again.
That’s sad. But that’s life.

But I can be the one who is there to stay.
You can be the one who is there to stay too.
Destiny permits us to play the game of chances together.
So why not?

Try-Catch

Found this try-catch statement in white paper on "Framework for Secure Application Design and Development":

try
{
do_something_unspeakably_cool();
do_something_potentially_bad();
do_something_weird_that_might_have_enexpected_results();
...
}
catch( char * str )
{
cout << "Exception raised: " <<
str << '\n';
}

Explore life!

Power of Time and Karma

My friend from LA, Eric, wrote to me (23rd June 12:20am):
..."If you can overcome the bitter thoughts and truly forgive it will be a positive growth and good Karma experience for you. You will also be released from the negative feelings because you know you didn’t do anything wrong. That would be a good place to live. Now after your forgiveness if he does this again then you can cut the rope knowing you did all you could do. Being disrespected is not acceptable."...

Karma works its magic on her, she looks cheap and fat now (and I hope for all the years of her life). Have I just wished bad Karma for someone else? No! I should not do that. It is up to the other person to control their lives, and to do so in a way that does not hurt others.

I guess I'm still keeping some bitterness. I'm trying, I'm trying...
Allah, purify my heart..

I am (20-Something) Woman, Hear Me Roar

There is a silent code of conduct, a taboo shared between the majority of women who regarded themselves to have morals and self respect. The taboo that I am referring to, of course, is that a married or otherwise attached male, is off limits. A "NO GO" sign, no matter how enticing or appealing he may appear to be.

Don't be too stupid, too thoughtless, too selfish and too ignorant to keep this golden vow alive amongst us women, you will create your own karma, and I do believe that if you are a poor judge of your own charater, you are ugly on the inside - which can truly be seen on the outside and vice versa. Gain respect. Show respect. Respect for ourselves guides our morals; respect for others guides our manners.

And yes, everyone makes mistakes, and that includes me, you, and the rest of the people on this planet. The kind of mistakes you make define you. If I’m right; I’ll continue the right way and never change it no matter what are the circumstances and pressure. And If I’m wrong; I’ll go back to correct my mistake and never repeat the same.

Albert Einstein once said "Insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results". Well, she did it again. This is why I hate Fasha Sandha (and few others) so fucking much. Nak nak pulak baru2 ni dia buat kecoh lagi. Eughh so very the sundal. Oh dan jantan (not lelaki) itu pule si keji Rizal Ashram Ramli. It takes two to tango.

Born to Organize

Yayy! It is so cool when you can colour-coordinate your things. I can't explain the sheer delight from seeing all my decorative pillows in order, nestled cozily by the floor lamp. It's the little things right? Those little details and the discovery of a great "find" that makes me feel good.

I loooove to organize. I just feel that everything has "a home" and I just love to keep my space "together". As if things can "talk" to each other. When things can talk, what do they say? (I feel like I just disclosed something about myself that could be used as justification to admit me to a psych ward)

I had a comfy night. Stay cozy people...Smooches!

Chub Chub

When we get comfortable in relationship, we tend to establish new habits together that aren't always the best for our weight and pocket. Eating can be an expensive habit. And if you're anything like me, then food probably consumes a significant portion of your monthly budget.

I believe couples and friends bond over food, and enjoying it becomes a special ritual in these relationships. For couples, food is very sensual, especially when you take turns tasting it. And it's tough to stick to petite portions when your dining companion downs 500 to 1,500 more calories a day than you do. It's hard to recognize a normal-size serving anymore because I'm always eating with a guy who consumes huge platefuls of food. I don't work out, so the only fix that works for me is to serve myself less - try to eat about 1/3 of what other is eating.

Do you get moody if you don't eat? Well, I do.
Don't make me eat you.

Mind Maestro

You can make up pictures and stories in your mind...
With a picture in mind and story to tell, break it into bite-sized pieces - this will keep you from being overwhelmed. People often say that you are better off doing one small thing every day than waiting for a big block of time to get many things completed.

So, one at a time - or all in one go?
We live in a crazy-quilt world. Learning to love contradiction is no small thing. I don’t write a lot for this, just enough to add some color. No one can tell you exactly how to survive in all its contradiction and complexity.

Age + $$$ Continuum

I think I’m sooo dead. I’m spending so much already!
Many items purchased fall into this category - I don't really need it, I don't really want it, but, dang it, no one is going to tell me that I can't have it.

Shiny shiny. After splashing out on the Full HD LCD TV last week, I feel content to just sit on the (new) sofa. One night, while lazing on the sofa, somewhat plagued by guilt of over-indulgence, I undressed my mind and asked myself "Where do I go from here?" Financially, physically, spiritually, mentally, emotionally... the all-important -ly I can think of...

Most of you will answer with your great ideas, maybe with a bright colorful picture perfect future you already planned out. Yeah I had that feeling once, for quite some time. I used to be so young, just setting out on life's adventure, with soaring dreams. I made a bunch of stupid decisions along the way, but was smart enough to make a few right ones. Let's shake that mental image. Now I see myself midstream and somewhat settled down. Looking at my life, honestly I don't know what my future holds. There are so many different variables floating around us every day.

Our life today is a reflection of what we thought and believed yesterday, but it was a rather rude awakening that taught me the fact that the past doesn't have to last when we choose to look through a new and improved view. Of all the things to remember, in general, I'd settle for an honest mistake in the name of LOVE. Love of beautiful things, love of family, love of friends, love of my life, love of God. For the time I've taken, the money I've spent, I pray, is not wasted.

Financially, remaining debt-free is a vow. Thank God, I don't have a credit card. It's an obvious trap for a person like me. Next month, discipline! Time to super-size my savings...err percayalah haha

Goddamn Bitch I Can Be

How was your weekend? Amazingly enough, I don't give a shit.
Angry when I cancelled on you? Oh..I ruined 'our' weekend plans? Oh-oh did I?
Damn, I feel bad (Fuck no!). Well, you deserved it.

I hope you learn in your self-hating guilt, I wish you well.

Another time another place I'll say it to your face:
"Well, screw you!"
Nak pedas, sila tambah - "..you prick!"

I'm trying to re-define what people think of as a prick in one sentence. A prick is an all around fucktard, dickweed, assrat bastard, that can easily be mistaken for a boner-biting dick-fart fuckface.

This is rude eh. Oops..
Dude, where's your gf?

There's nothing wrong with being me.
There's nothing cheap about loyalty.

Go fuck yourself.

(I'm officially a graduate with a PhD in Bitchinism)

That Gut Feeling

Hey, I'm here. This could only mean I am me, once more.
But no regular updates. I'm enjoying this blank slate for now. We'll see how it goes.

Surround yourself with positive, nourishing people. Good people. Seriously, avoid losers, jerks, bitches, fuckers, morons, assholes & bastards. Even the innocent desperates. Bad ones.

Think happiness and always re-think your happiness.
Count your blessings.
Be nice.