Perlu Ke?

Mmg tak perlu la kottttt. You didn't have to include me in your New Year's resolution puhh-lisss. Move on, bastard! You yourself made me pull the trigger d'uhh, I watched you die, remember? Sendiri buat palat. Aritu konon buat2 wish birthday salah secara pathetic, ni lagi nak carik pasal lagi dan lagi?! Feel free to be happy with si bimbo gemok pilihan otak-letak-kat-kote tu. Ke dah boring sbb tu carik drama baru. I don't need you even as Facebook friend, perlu sgt ke? Pfftttt. Good night, have a nightmare! I'll always be the one that got away for the rest of your life. FUCK YOU.

HAPPY NEW YEAR to all! Don't worry, I'm nice to good people. Have a wonderful 2012! Looking forward for heavy-duty changes in life :D

2011 XP

I'll start with Alhamdulillah...

After few months of dramarama, I'm single, again, so I'll definitely look forward to new love in 2011. The guy that I used to love very deeply is a 'changed' man. From a young naive boy 3 years back, he decided to grow up as a cheater, he had cheated on me once and now he cheats forever more. I really did love him with everything in me. But if he was stupid enough to make the same bad thing again and again, I should be smart enough to let him go.

Long enough now I'm strong enough. Ideas pull the trigger, but instinct loads the gun. He must be really pissed off when I did nothing for his birthday, not even a birthday wish (He spent A LOT for my birthday I know). He just had to delete my picture on his facebook the day after. Gee, marah pulak ye. I did plan throwing him a surprise birthday party with his friends, well, that did not happen after his sneaky ways were discovered (Thank God!). No wonder lah lately pelik2 mencari pasal eh. I thought he would thank me because I gave him the best present ever - I made it easy for him, I simply 'vanished'. It's ok, thank me later.

Anyway, few days after his birthday I gave him my LAST phone call to see whether he can just be honest with me. Dengan angkuhnye dia buat ayat yg mcm2 konon dia dah x pikir about relationship at all bla bla bla, yg dia tgh serabut bla bla bla. Well, the keji-ness truth was (one of the) betina sundal(s) tu mmg dah tergedik-gedik dah happy dpt spent his birthday together in KL, kantoiii baek punye jugak ngn aku yg kau mmg dasar jantan otak letak kat kote huhu, nah bukti dr betina tu (tp fb kau 'clean' konon baiknyelah sgt sgt kan)

Ke-kantoi-an Syed Muzzaffar Syed Mohsin

It's a bitter end. I experienced a whole gamut of different emotions. I've been losing sleep as he has been going cheap. There were nights I said a prayer and fell asleep, that's when the sweet begins... I learned the difference between chance and decision, giving and receiving, and most importantly, forgiveness. To me, I feel all my different relationships have helped me grow tremendously as a woman and I would not trade the experiences. I can truly embrace, accept and feel the difference in my bones. The scars are nothing compared to the lessons learned.

Let’s face it, we're all only human. In the end, I felt like - Ding! I've achieved a new level in my game. Looking on the bright side - I thank God, my family, my friends and his friends. Let's approach each day with a wonderful sense of wonder and bliss. I'll guard my heart. I'll guard my spirit. Time heals and reveals. Time will tell... ;) Heart-to-heart talk sungguh ni kannn

I have been super busy at work. I love deadlines. I like the whooshing sound they make as they fly by. Sila jgn percaya dua ayat terakhir ni. Happy New Year, 2011! Make it a good one!

...And I Love You

You now have a tantrum-throwing girlfriend. I have my reasons.
That night when I cursed and cried,
to my surprise, you didn't walk away.
Instead, you stayed with promises.
We, you and me,
will stay together to keep pushing through the hard times.
That's when I see you've become a better man.

I'm on my way to believing.
Don't let this be nothing more than a maze of lies.
You love me now, will you still love me for the rest of my life?

Every single day I think about how we came all this way.
Um...And I love you...
Just stay.

Gym Buddies

I followed Ken and Jeff to the gym last Saturday. Now the two of them are into diet, fitness, bodybuilding, weight loss, health, supplements, vitamins bla bla bla... Their plan for July is to go to the gym regularly and my plan is to join them once a week, during the weekend to be exact. Ye, saye pemalas bab exercise tapi sebok nak semangat sihat jugak mcm diorg.

I hope I will sustain the same spirit - I tend to quickly lose interest in exercise regimen. Ken is serious on this. He takes dietary GNC supplement. Hmm in my opinion, just about everything in GNC is overpriced. I only take multivitamin, currently yg free punye plak tu. It's pretty much the only thing I will ever take to stay healthy (for now).

From a competitive standpoint, having someone next to you at the gym will make you exercise better, harder, and longer. Mari kite tgk sape yg katang, yeahh! Poyo je nih, memang dok arr (cakak ganu blajo nge set2 mu), because I know he'll always win over me in sports. As for me, I should just win his heart and keep it always like that. Wuu wuu.

We will officially be gym buddies on 2nd of July.

Chub Chub

When we get comfortable in relationship, we tend to establish new habits together that aren't always the best for our weight and pocket. Eating can be an expensive habit. And if you're anything like me, then food probably consumes a significant portion of your monthly budget.

I believe couples and friends bond over food, and enjoying it becomes a special ritual in these relationships. For couples, food is very sensual, especially when you take turns tasting it. And it's tough to stick to petite portions when your dining companion downs 500 to 1,500 more calories a day than you do. It's hard to recognize a normal-size serving anymore because I'm always eating with a guy who consumes huge platefuls of food. I don't work out, so the only fix that works for me is to serve myself less - try to eat about 1/3 of what other is eating.

Do you get moody if you don't eat? Well, I do.
Don't make me eat you.

Here We Go Go Go Again

And again (And again)...
Now I'm at a place I thought I'd never be

Goddamn Bitch I Can Be

How was your weekend? Amazingly enough, I don't give a shit.
Angry when I cancelled on you? Oh..I ruined 'our' weekend plans? Oh-oh did I?
Damn, I feel bad (Fuck no!). Well, you deserved it.

I hope you learn in your self-hating guilt, I wish you well.

Another time another place I'll say it to your face:
"Well, screw you!"
Nak pedas, sila tambah - "..you prick!"

I'm trying to re-define what people think of as a prick in one sentence. A prick is an all around fucktard, dickweed, assrat bastard, that can easily be mistaken for a boner-biting dick-fart fuckface.

This is rude eh. Oops..
Dude, where's your gf?

There's nothing wrong with being me.
There's nothing cheap about loyalty.

Go fuck yourself.

(I'm officially a graduate with a PhD in Bitchinism)

November Nyam Nyam

I eat a lot this month. I became a food snob. These days, I head out for lunch or dinner almost everyday. That's an income sucker right there. I realized everytime I go out I always over eat and I always spend more than I want. Bad for me but I'm a sucker for good food.

Among the eating places that I've been to this November are:

• Bayleaf Steak House > Hands down, one of the best steak I've ever had!


• Oldtown Kopitiam > Way too often! Still can't get enough


• Nasi Lemak Antarabangsa TTDI Jaya > Must try the 'Pisang goreng Bali', scrumptious! Sedappp yg amat


• Tony Roma's Sunway Pyramid > Nothing particularly bad about this place, it's just OK...


• Dorsett Regency Subang > The buffet breakfast is substantial


• ...Secret Recipe, Starbucks, Kemaman Kopitiam, Restoran Timur, MS Garden

Yesterday, Ken and I went to Tjantek Art Bistro for dinner. As we entered Tjantek, immediately we felt a very relaxed vibe with some Jazz playing and a lot of art on the walls and books in cases in cabinets on either side. The lighting had been set to make for a pleasant evening of food and chat. If food is a symbol of love, eating can easily set stage for romance, and Tjantek is definitely one of the places that facilitate mingling - it's definitely perfect for a first date!

Camwhoring while waiting for our food, here are some pics:

I'm so darn hungry right now!