Mind Maestro

You can make up pictures and stories in your mind...
With a picture in mind and story to tell, break it into bite-sized pieces - this will keep you from being overwhelmed. People often say that you are better off doing one small thing every day than waiting for a big block of time to get many things completed.

So, one at a time - or all in one go?
We live in a crazy-quilt world. Learning to love contradiction is no small thing. I don’t write a lot for this, just enough to add some color. No one can tell you exactly how to survive in all its contradiction and complexity.

Sunday Nite Snapshots

Can I have French Toast for dinner?
Yes, I can! I serve "breakfast at any time".

Can I lay like this all night?
Oh yeah, home is the perfect liberty
to think, feel, do just as I please.

Can tomorrow NOT be Monday?
Hear my long sigh goodnight...
Monday is an awful way to spend 1/7th of your life.
It's not even Monday morning yet. Can't wait for next weekend.

Age + $$$ Continuum

I think I’m sooo dead. I’m spending so much already!
Many items purchased fall into this category - I don't really need it, I don't really want it, but, dang it, no one is going to tell me that I can't have it.

Shiny shiny. After splashing out on the Full HD LCD TV last week, I feel content to just sit on the (new) sofa. One night, while lazing on the sofa, somewhat plagued by guilt of over-indulgence, I undressed my mind and asked myself "Where do I go from here?" Financially, physically, spiritually, mentally, emotionally... the all-important -ly I can think of...

Most of you will answer with your great ideas, maybe with a bright colorful picture perfect future you already planned out. Yeah I had that feeling once, for quite some time. I used to be so young, just setting out on life's adventure, with soaring dreams. I made a bunch of stupid decisions along the way, but was smart enough to make a few right ones. Let's shake that mental image. Now I see myself midstream and somewhat settled down. Looking at my life, honestly I don't know what my future holds. There are so many different variables floating around us every day.

Our life today is a reflection of what we thought and believed yesterday, but it was a rather rude awakening that taught me the fact that the past doesn't have to last when we choose to look through a new and improved view. Of all the things to remember, in general, I'd settle for an honest mistake in the name of LOVE. Love of beautiful things, love of family, love of friends, love of my life, love of God. For the time I've taken, the money I've spent, I pray, is not wasted.

Financially, remaining debt-free is a vow. Thank God, I don't have a credit card. It's an obvious trap for a person like me. Next month, discipline! Time to super-size my savings...err percayalah haha

Here We Go Go Go Again

And again (And again)...
Now I'm at a place I thought I'd never be

Goddamn Bitch I Can Be

How was your weekend? Amazingly enough, I don't give a shit.
Angry when I cancelled on you? Oh..I ruined 'our' weekend plans? Oh-oh did I?
Damn, I feel bad (Fuck no!). Well, you deserved it.

I hope you learn in your self-hating guilt, I wish you well.

Another time another place I'll say it to your face:
"Well, screw you!"
Nak pedas, sila tambah - "..you prick!"

I'm trying to re-define what people think of as a prick in one sentence. A prick is an all around fucktard, dickweed, assrat bastard, that can easily be mistaken for a boner-biting dick-fart fuckface.

This is rude eh. Oops..
Dude, where's your gf?

There's nothing wrong with being me.
There's nothing cheap about loyalty.

Go fuck yourself.

(I'm officially a graduate with a PhD in Bitchinism)