Oct 2016

Hey! It's been waaayyyyy too long. How are you?

Here I am on my bed, with my handsome toddler -- sleeping --, then I wonder how did I reach to this point in my life? I'm just glad to (still) be here, sometimes I revisit my past like tonight, to remind me the lessons I acquired in the school of life.

I just came back from Sydney. In a tour up to the Blue Mountains, there was a mum (50s) + son (20s) couple who are on 3 weeks holiday together (I had a chitchat with them, they are from Frankfurt, lovely people). My husband whispered to me "That will be you and Affan in the future", simply because I am doing so already and will keep doing it, go Mummy-me! Australia is Affan's 5th foreign country, not bad for a 2 year-ol' eh. Can't wait for our next adventure together!

New Boyfriend in the Making

I'm 22 weeks pregnant. And no surprise, as the title of this post reveals, yes, I'm having a baby boy. Oh my handsome new hero in my tummy hihi. The overall experience of pregnancy so far, hmm, I would say, try really hard to convince me to get pregnant for 2nd baby huhu, hate the morning (*all day) sickness and challenges that came along - I just recovered from dengue fever and eczema. However, now, I started to have an enjoyable time :) no more sickness, the baby kicks actively, and my bump is obvious but I think it's not too big coz I'm petite by nature. My husband teases me a lot about my buncit-ness belly, he said he never see me this big, and sometimes when I talk he will suddenly laugh at me because he thinks pregnant-me look amusing *sigh...jahat kannn

 

 

I pray that everything will be alright. Can't wait to see you lil' boi!

Wants

Another dream realized. I wanted one since years ago and I finally bought one this year. I went to Louis Vuitton KLCC store to check the price, and Zura helped me to buy it in Switzerland while she's on holiday. Got it RM1k cheaper than Malaysia, huh Malaysia sales tax kao kao! I remember last year I bought a Longchamp handbag in Paris with ~RM800 price difference - Isetan KLCC was selling it at RM1890. I definitely vote for shopping branded stuff outside Malaysia.

I'm not really a brands-slave, but I do have my wants...at least once a year. Hmm next year..? New wallet! ( huhu maybe after my now-wallet really teruk lah, my husband is starting having a headache -__-" ) I want theeeeeesssseee

"Do you want the good news or the bad news?"

Whoahh it's hard to believe that 2013 is already half over! Hello July. Hmm so what to tell? What do you want to know? Why am I asking in riddles?

Let's just spit it out.



Just celebrated 1st wedding anniversary last month. We took a second honeymoon at Berjaya Langkawi Resort, de-stressing in such beautiful place with nothing much to do but spend time with one another :) like like like! We look forward for more and more honeymoon getaway.



After a year into the marriage:

• like many women, I put on weight (4-5 kgs) in my first year as wife haha. I'm now around 42-43 kg. Hope I don't look so chubby/fat!
• finally decided that I'm ready for baby (...I think). Hubby is very happy with this as he wants baby since beginning. I'm sorry B you had to wait this long..
• Few weeks ago, I had a very early miscarriage, in the 5th week pregnancy. The pain is more intense than in normal menstruations and it was confirmed by the decrement of hCG levels in my blood.

But I don't know what is this feeling I feel? I didn't cry at all, but I'm not happy also. Is this... a sad relief? I actually feel OK but when people kinda expect me to feel sad, well that's when I feel I'm weird for feeling OK. Err. Get what I mean? Huhu. Doc said it's best to try again after 3 menstrual cycles. Well, let's hope for better luck 2nd time.

Oh! :)

I'm back at home... and I love Europe!! Another Euro trip someday? Absolutely darrrllllss!

 

 

 

 

2012 is going to end soon, it has been such fun + exciting year. What's next in 2013? Well, I think I'll be more focus and more on the serious side..? Jeng jeng jengggg. Let's strive toward goals!

My 1st Autumn

In few hours I'll be experiencing autumn for the first time.
I'm going to these places for the next 2 weeks! Woooottt
Another dream of mine will come true :) ...

Married, Honeymoon & Moving

Happily married

We had an awesome honeymoon in Bali

And the latest big thing is that I resign from my job, so bye bye Kuantan, hello Kuala Lumpur (very soon).

Oh, what a year!

Big Things Are Coming My Way

Woot! I'm officially a house owner! I've bought it last year and it's recently completed. Brand new 4+1 Rooms & 3 Bathrooms. My very first house, my own :) However I have yet to decide whether or not to sell it huhu. Anyone interested?



Big thing come in small package too - My 2nd Tiffany & Co. ! I promise this won't be my last =P! Thank you Mr. Fiance

Big Day is soooo near. Marriage. Seriously? I mean, SERIOUSLY? Knowing me, even my brothers are still in denial with the fact that their big sister is getting married haha. I must admit I'm so comfortable being on my own and sitting home alone. But this one particular guy is pushing almost all the right buttons, hope he's worth it, insyaAllah. I'll distribute the wedding invitation cards soon! Weeee

For more wedding preps updates feel free to browse my other blog: The Junetastic Brides
Counting the days. Future me is too busy now, love love love ~

Perlu Ke?

Mmg tak perlu la kottttt. You didn't have to include me in your New Year's resolution puhh-lisss. Move on, bastard! You yourself made me pull the trigger d'uhh, I watched you die, remember? Sendiri buat palat. Aritu konon buat2 wish birthday salah secara pathetic, ni lagi nak carik pasal lagi dan lagi?! Feel free to be happy with si bimbo gemok pilihan otak-letak-kat-kote tu. Ke dah boring sbb tu carik drama baru. I don't need you even as Facebook friend, perlu sgt ke? Pfftttt. Good night, have a nightmare! I'll always be the one that got away for the rest of your life. FUCK YOU.

HAPPY NEW YEAR to all! Don't worry, I'm nice to good people. Have a wonderful 2012! Looking forward for heavy-duty changes in life :D

Pssstt

Dear readers,

If you stop by my blog on a regular basis, you've may be wondering why it's been so quiet around here.

Click below to find out:

The Junetastic Brides

October 2011

Another October...
Happy 27th birthday to me and I'm engaged!
I'm still that young eh :P Gossshhhh

We had a fight soon after the engagement, over such petty things haha. We patched up again in a funny way, as always. This will never stop making me happy. He's making me happy. People around me are making me happy.

Thank you.
Thank you Allah.

Richer or Poorer

Oopssy I skipped a month, poor August...
I am wishing everyone a Happy Eid Mubarak!
I had a great raya this year, last minute raya shopping without spending a dime. Boom boom, ain't it great if my whole life is easy like that?

Lately I'm being a person that always thinking about money – how to save more, how to earn more, so that I can spend more. I want money lots and lots of money. Not because money makes me happy, because it doesn't. However, money buys me freedom, which does make me happy.

Yesterday me & bf took a quick tour around Setiawangsa housing area, rich big beautiful homes up on the hill. I called it The Mind Spa tour - luxurious pampering of my imagination, him as the tour guide (the cousin's houses, the home owners, which street which movie scene, which house for what movie etc.) Aaahhh~ I want a house in KL. Well, real estate is always good, as far as I'm concerned...hmm..money come to me quickly, under grace, in perfect ways.

Jaw-dropper

O-M-G! Dramatic things!
Despite all my efforts to stay healthy and love my body, I was a little under the weather for few weeks going into July. But I have to be thankful because it could be much, much, much worse. Alhamdulillah.

Now I’m back - almost! I have had a lot of office stuff keeping me away from things that I love doing. Thus I keep getting extremely tempted to make an effort that involved leaving my comfort zone. Good for me huh. But obviously, such things take time. I'm just waiting until...jeng jeng jeng

Other not-so-serious things that have made my jaw drop are:

• Adele! She is a gem. I've listened to both of her albums. In some songs, I just love how intense the chorus are and "you shower me with words made of knives" - I also love her heartbroken anger. 'Chasing Pavements' is my favourite song. 'Someone Like You' is so moving and filled with so much emotion.
• My 1st Tiffany & Co. and diamond! Something I’ve wanted for the longest time! I simply love the signature Tiffany bow on the box. Me and the boyfie headed down to KLCC last Sunday. When he bought me those without much hesitation, I looked at him, I know he's a keeper. Thank you B...
• Housing loan monthly instalment payment starts NOW! I bought my 1st house earlier this year...rmh lom siap lg tp mengade opt to start bayar awal kan, hamekkk ko Diyana! Damn, no more shopping days.

Hong Kong

Hong Kong is simply dazzling. In 5D4N, we (7 strong-willed ladies) covered most of the city's must-see sights such as Stanley Market, Victoria Peak, Madame Tussaud's Hong Kong, Hong Kong Disneyland, Sky100, Avenue of Stars, Symphony of Lights show, Tsim Sha Tsui etc. Plus, day trip to Macau - City of Dreams.

Shopping in Hong Kong is a dream every ardent shopper looks to fulfil. One thing to feel about Hong Kong is to feel the rush as you indulge in shopping! I bought my first A|X, Lacoste, French Connection, H&M and Longchamp here, yeayyy! The expensives are still way cheaper than back home.

Credit card was my ultimate enabler for all the Hong Kong shopping. Ye, saye terjebak. The results are (expensive) blessings in disguise! Haha me likey!

Pop Health Enthusiast

I know I'm a health enthusiast when... I hunt for super foods! Calling it a pop, not rock, not heavy metal, not classical bcoz I'm not too extreme, yet. Super foods are defined as those foods which are so nutrient-rich that they can help fight aging and illness (salmon, berries, almonds etc.)

I'm not a gym-goer or someone living an active lifestyle at all, but I extremely care about my health and always practice caution and good hygiene. Earlier this year, Noran pointed out to me that at our age now we need to start religiously taking supplements and such, something internal. I couldn't agree more! My health/looks has deteriorated due to lack of sleep, work stress, hormone imbalance, err post breakup depression, newly-in-love symptoms (acne! huhu). Plus, I know I'm not that old but why am I starting to feel old? Well guess what? It's normal, as according to a study, women consider themselves old at 29 ("Thanks" to society's obsession with youth and beauty) – half the age of men who don’t feel over the hill until they are 58.

Recently I started a new regime that involves weekly steam bath and fresh goat's milk. Every Friday, I'll buy at least a (small RM7! erghh mahal) bottle of goat's milk and go for a 20-30 minutes steam bath right after office. I will continue this until my personal preferences and sensitivities (if any) become clear. A great way to kick start the weekend.

Some people are kind of ageless, no matter what age. I want to be one too. Please, oh please let me be *Sigh

April Acceleration

Hello, I just got back from a 2-day teambuilding session at Janda Baik. Penaaaaatttttttt!

This month seems almost over. So much is happening at once. I went to see the F1 race at Sepang International Circuit. The boyfriend managed to get us Grandstand tickets - a great view, right opposite the pitlane. He's crazy about cars - I knew right from the beginning coz he gives his Benzy so much love. My car is buruk already, the god-help-me look on his face was so obvious when he first saw my car hahaha. And by our 3rd date he came out with a plan on getting me a new car. I said Noooooo! Membazir (Only for now)

F1 race is unlike anything in the world. 20 cars accelerating from 0 to 100 MPH in 3 seconds is an incredible sight to see and even more thrilling to hear! I hope Vettel can defend his victory from the previous year. Webber and Button are drool-worthy though hehe

Like the F1 race, my life in April just keeps on accelerating. Change is occurring at breakneck speeds. I already paid 10% down payment for my first house, yeayyy I'm so broke! I've met his family...twice! I'll bring him home to meet my parents too this weekend. Bonus month! Although personally it has been a bad 2010 for me, but not the company performance. I was a bit surprised, but not in a bad way. Who ever thought a year gone so wrong, would turn out so lovely in 2011. Now we are reaping the benefits of hard work =)

Many things to plan, many things to settle. And some things in life seem too ridiculous to be true sometimes. Even when something does live up to the hype, we try to convince ourselves it’s not true..eh?

Anyhow, I'll always try to be grateful in all circumstances.
In a word - Gratitude.

Take Me Away

Less than a month into our relationship, he took me to a place I'd never been + seen, a perfect island getaway, Pulau Perhentian. I said 'Yes' without hesitation, as affections are steady and the desire to spend bigger chunks of time is clearly mutual between us. It's a group holiday btw.

I managed braving the ocean to snorkel for the first time. It was scary at first but he patiently guided me to discover the wonderful treasures hidden under the ocean. He helped me overcome my fear of water. I've always had a terrible fear of being submerged completely in water (Can't swim!). Snorkeling is an amazing experience. I loved it! Oh and it’s easy to sunburn unnoticed, since the water can keep you feeling cool, even when you’re burning up. I got a tan, and he got a sunburn! Hehe

He has given me a new lease on life - this time last year I would never have had had the courage to do half the things I can do now. He is more than I could have ever dreamed of. I can feel his Halo and I pray it won't fade away...

Within this 2 weeks he'll be taking me to 3 new places. I'm a bit nervous but yet excited. If we are destined for a life of travel and fun together, I've got nothin' left to say, just take me away.

Mega Date

Conversations initiated after about a year of no contact led to the first date. It started off with a surprise belated birthday celebration with his best buddies. We really surprised him because he can't figure how did we pull it off when it was supposed to be my first time meeting all of them. Hehe terer x kami berkomplot, tau xpe. Then karaoke session for 2 hours followed by an enjoyable late dinner in a treehouse gazebo. We made a quick stop at my house, packed my things and went back to the resort. Balcony-talk with the rest till 3++ am zzZz

While some were asleep and some went out for breakfast, we both spent our morning watching a movie (our first movie!) together, altho it's just on an iPad. I had some laughs with him without any make-up on. I hope he still think I'm pretty just like in Katy Perry Teenage Dream song..

Checked out, had lunch, drove to Cherating, checked in. Hit the pool and beach in the evening and had lot lot lot of fun there. He's a good strong 5' 10" swimmer. I can't swim at all, so mcm berendam setempat je. We shared little sweet moments too ;) We started calling each other "syg" ever since *anime nosebleed* Haha ok2 x elaborate byk kang geli pulak, I'm too old for this sh...stuff! After dinner that night, we parted.

Remember the new guy and the new friends.
Longest 1st date. New personal record.
This, kids, is the short version story of how I first met your father...?

P/S - 2nd & 3rd already planned weee!

2011 XP

I'll start with Alhamdulillah...

After few months of dramarama, I'm single, again, so I'll definitely look forward to new love in 2011. The guy that I used to love very deeply is a 'changed' man. From a young naive boy 3 years back, he decided to grow up as a cheater, he had cheated on me once and now he cheats forever more. I really did love him with everything in me. But if he was stupid enough to make the same bad thing again and again, I should be smart enough to let him go.

Long enough now I'm strong enough. Ideas pull the trigger, but instinct loads the gun. He must be really pissed off when I did nothing for his birthday, not even a birthday wish (He spent A LOT for my birthday I know). He just had to delete my picture on his facebook the day after. Gee, marah pulak ye. I did plan throwing him a surprise birthday party with his friends, well, that did not happen after his sneaky ways were discovered (Thank God!). No wonder lah lately pelik2 mencari pasal eh. I thought he would thank me because I gave him the best present ever - I made it easy for him, I simply 'vanished'. It's ok, thank me later.

Anyway, few days after his birthday I gave him my LAST phone call to see whether he can just be honest with me. Dengan angkuhnye dia buat ayat yg mcm2 konon dia dah x pikir about relationship at all bla bla bla, yg dia tgh serabut bla bla bla. Well, the keji-ness truth was (one of the) betina sundal(s) tu mmg dah tergedik-gedik dah happy dpt spent his birthday together in KL, kantoiii baek punye jugak ngn aku yg kau mmg dasar jantan otak letak kat kote huhu, nah bukti dr betina tu (tp fb kau 'clean' konon baiknyelah sgt sgt kan)

Ke-kantoi-an Syed Muzzaffar Syed Mohsin

It's a bitter end. I experienced a whole gamut of different emotions. I've been losing sleep as he has been going cheap. There were nights I said a prayer and fell asleep, that's when the sweet begins... I learned the difference between chance and decision, giving and receiving, and most importantly, forgiveness. To me, I feel all my different relationships have helped me grow tremendously as a woman and I would not trade the experiences. I can truly embrace, accept and feel the difference in my bones. The scars are nothing compared to the lessons learned.

Let’s face it, we're all only human. In the end, I felt like - Ding! I've achieved a new level in my game. Looking on the bright side - I thank God, my family, my friends and his friends. Let's approach each day with a wonderful sense of wonder and bliss. I'll guard my heart. I'll guard my spirit. Time heals and reveals. Time will tell... ;) Heart-to-heart talk sungguh ni kannn

I have been super busy at work. I love deadlines. I like the whooshing sound they make as they fly by. Sila jgn percaya dua ayat terakhir ni. Happy New Year, 2011! Make it a good one!

Stay

A plain fact of human relationships is this:
People come and people go

Not necessarily from death.
Sometimes simple circumstance
can take a person right out of your hands,
never to be seen again.
That’s sad. But that’s life.

But I can be the one who is there to stay.
You can be the one who is there to stay too.
Destiny permits us to play the game of chances together.
So why not?